Happy October first!
I’m thrilled to be back with you after a loooong summer off. Here in the south, summer season lasts until Halloween or after. Ask anyone who tried wearing a furry costume on Halloween and swealted (sweated and melted) completely while cruising the neighborhood for tricks or treats.
How are you doing? Did you enjoy your summer, even when in partial quarantine? I hope so! For those of you who have been around a while, I didn’t mean to cause alarm that maybe my health took a bad turn. Praise the Lord! He is managing my health wonderfully through various avenues.
When the thought first came to me in mid-May, I wondered . . . . If I take the summer off from writing blog posts,
- What will I do instead?
- Will I be bored to tears – especially so with Covid19 stay-home mandates?
- Will I finally finish writing “the book” – the one I started early last year?
- Should I say good-bye to you before skipping off into the sunset?
- What should I say, really, when I don’t even understand it yet myself?
The feelings of change, the same dullness and lack of inspiration I felt in early summer of 2017 (before my life turned upside down with illnesses) were back. Was God about to change my life drastically again? Selfishly, I prayed not! If God calls me away from writing blog postings to you from now on, I would be greatly disappointed. And so sad.
“Haven’t I given up enough, Lord?”
Chunks of my former life had been stripped away since the onset of a Multiple Sclerosis diagnosis – and then a cancer diagnosis only three short weeks after. Honestly, by last summer (two and a half years later), I was in complete lament over what felt like a full-on lack of purpose in ANY area of my life. MS causes inabilities in many different ways. Was I fooling myself that I could even write sensibly anymore? I questioned everything.
E. V. E. R. Y. T. H. I. N. G.
As I took the break this past summer from all writing (yes, even the book), I waited for God to show me His intentions for my future, my purpose. For surely, He gives those who love Him a purpose in this life! We Bible-believers know the verses well:
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And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)
Plus, there’s always this (purpose-filled) mandate:
Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.” (Matthew 28:19-20)
And then, this psalm, as all psalms do for me, penetrated the root of it.
The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of your hands. (Psalm 138:8, emphasis added.)
Not because of anything I do or have done (or anything you do or have done). But because of His steadfast love, He will never forsake one who is His heir through faith in Jesus Christ.
You can count on it!
I can count on it!
And, I did.
While waiting, the seat at my laptop was empty for over four months. I wondered if I would lose my previous mo-jo for writing. Have you had similar questions during seasons of waiting?
Because He lives~
P.S. More to come … the God-story and happy ending unfolded. (Soon, pinkie promise.) Hugs! 🙂